The Way that the Mystics See
by
Anthony Cusack
Refrain:
I’ve been going through my life so nihilistically
And this lust is eating at me so sadistically
And I don’t mean to put it too simplistically
But I just want to see the way that the mystics see
Verse 1:
He wakes up
He hates the crosses that he takes up
The losses that he gave up
The walls that he caved up
The love that he saved up
But never gave away
He goes back to the day
When he stood in his dad’s way
Because he couldn’t understand why he wouldn’t stay
While his mom cries away another day
So he goes through his life scared, cold, and bereft
He can’t stand grieving over his dad’s leaving
So he tries to fill up the hole that he left
He turns to women, he’s swimming in drugs and in gin and in porn
Cursing the day he was born, heart’s torn
Anything to stop the crave
For the love that his dad never gave
He sits in his man cave
And waits to get hit by the next wave
Repeat Refrain
Verse 2
So he falls to his knees
And he begs God, “Please!
My soul is filled with disease
And with lust but I must confess
That I mistrust the best in me
And despite my unrest and distress
I just can’t seem to shake all the hurt and regret
I feel like a pervert I’m set in my ways
This is more than a phase
My heart’s in a fight, in a haze
Sleepless are my nights and dark are my days.
I can’t stop this lusting, But I’m trusting
You’ll give me the strength that I need
To proceed and release me
From all of this unceasing
Stress and depression
I’m done with this guessing
And filling this hole in my soul
With these things that entice me
I don’t know what love is precisely
But if you can show me
I know you don’t owe me a thing
But I can’t take the sting from my heart
So I’m asking you now to replace
All this pain with your grace and your love
And your peace from above
Repeat Refrain
Verse 3
Now he gives up his ways
And his life starts to change
But its strange
Because he still feels crazy and deranged
Whenever he walks by a girl
And his head’s in a whirl
Because he wants to go back to his old ways
His head’s in a daze
So he turns away and blocks his face
All he feels is shame and disgrace
He sees sex as perverse
And his feelings a curse
“Please God help me to see what you see
and to be the man and the son that you made me to be”
So he prays and he prays
Morning, noon, nights and days
Till he wakes up and sees
God above, God of love
On the cross, paid the cost
Till He saved what was lost
And the love of the groom for his bride
Manifest, cannot hide
Now he sees with the sight to behold
The picture of love that unfolds
2nd Refrain
I was going through my life so nihilistically
And the lust was eating at me so sadistically
And I don’t mean to put it too simplistically
But this must be the way that the mystics see
